I am Lost

by: goddessthalia

Written: July 30, 2021

My alarm in the phone rings… I just press the dismiss button.

I’m in the school talking to someone about this kind of people living near in the school….

Afterwards , there’s event organized and we are tasked to perform.

In the practice room, when I entered I noticed one group is fully prepared. They wear costume, a pair of white silky skirt and  a  crop top. I just told myself “ They are totally prepared” 

I enter another practice room, then I saw one my groupmate, wearing almost the same design clothes like the other group. “ Hey, You were lost. You wear the same clothes like the other group”. Then, I glance to the entire room and saw my group wearing the same. 

When the practice began,

Groupmate 1: You didn’t order her a costume.

Groupmate 2: I forgot. I thought she was not included.

The practice goes on. They change there clothes so it will not be cover of sweat after.

I noticed I’m not in the center position anymore like I used to be. There a lot better than me. They are more attractive and they smile perfectly and that’s the reason they are more attractive.

In the venue of the event, it was like farm and it was also near to our school.  As we finished to perform, I covered with sweat. I walk away to the venue as I take off my white shirt cause I wore sando inside. Then I saw people laughing , turning their head to me, then talk again. Saying words I can’t understand. I continue to walk and pass them… I just strolled the place . There a lot of tree, bamboo trees and nipa huts interconnected to each other; and I go back to the venue of the event afterwards.

 We are all sitting  and waiting for the food to be serve. But they we’re not able to serve all so the others serve for themselves. A woman around 40 to 50 years old says “ Give it to your mom.” She handed me a food in a container. “Thank you” , I said smilingly.

In the table, 

“I go with you later, I will just give it to my mom”, I told to my guy friend. 

“Yeah. Will wait for you”, he replied.

“ Come with me , I treat you like I promised”, my girl acquaintance said.

“Hmmmm. Now?”

“Later”

“Ahhh. Hmmm. I just give it.”

“Bye!” , saying to the both of them.

My mom is also near in the event…. 

I step my foot over and over but I can’t find her. So I just put the food to one place, and turn to finding her again. But still, she’s no where to be found. Instead, I saw the kids I pass by. They still talking and laughing , and playing such game.

“ Why don’t you try to her?”, as he referring to me.

I looked confused to them and said “ Wanna try what?” and continue walking…

“ Just try it to her” the other guy said.

“ I will not”, he responded. I heared from afar.

As I walk, I saw my stepdad in a nipa hut with bunch of people and asked him, “Dy, Where’s mom?”

“She’s here”, he replied as he pointed.

“I will give something , I will go back” , I shouted in reply because it so much noise in the place.

As I go back to the place where I left the food, I need to change route to avoid those kiddos.

Instead of I go straight and turn left, I choose to  go straight , turn right, left, and left again. I saw nipa huts, I went to it as I thought It was nearby the venue. In the interconnected nipa huts, I notice that the other was build above the water. The pathways are woods , and it was a bit damaged but still can be walk on.  It is so beautiful that you will able to think that you are living in 1900s.

I am enjoyed walking in those pathways, and continue in finding the way to the venue… But when I walk longer, I was ended in the wall, with a roof above, and a slight light coming from the in between of roof and wall. I turn around, and look for the other way out. I ended up in a house. It’s like a dead end cause I was trap in the 4 walls and the only way out is through the window. I use my strength to climb and try to fit myself to window. Luckily, I fitted and jump from it. Then I turn my head to the left and right side, yet it still walls on the both side… I feel like I am hopeless , and water forming into my eyes. A girl pop out, also looking for something. “Hey, where are you going?” , I ask but she just ignore me as if she didn’t hear me and continue walking. I follow her, but then she enter a room and slam the door and lock it. 

In this , I’m really hopeless. I can’t find the way out. My tears started to went down. I pat my pocket and there’s my phone… I started typing to my phone and all my attention is into it. I don’t care if I will bump into something. As I’m typing, Daddy Calling appeared in my screen. I notice my phone is low battery, I ignore the call. “ Mom, I am lost”, then click send before the phone shutdown.

As I go back my eyes forward, surprisingly, there is sunset and I can see a signage and gate far away. I cannot clearly see what’s on it because of my tears that makes my vision blurry. I started to run as fast as I can but then someone grab my hand. I turn out, and I hear it again. Their laughs. The guy spill something from his mouth. Their laughs become louder. It is the time I get myself and run as if I’m in a marathon. But they like my competitors, they are eager to reach me. I am now close in the gate, but they’re still behind me. I am really tired … Upon reaching the gate , I am able to recognize what it is. The letters on it “Himalaya” and “SWU” .I see a room afterwards and open it. There’s a man inside sitting in the floor behind the window facing the wall. He cough, maybe he didn’t notice my presence. They are now in my back , only a ruler before they will catch me… I’m holding my breath as I slam the door, and trying to lock the door. Mixed emotions flow after as I slump to the floor. 

As I open my eyes, I heard a phone ringing…